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Sitting here anchored out in Melbourne. I guess it’s finally hit me that we are
no longer in St Augustine. Feeling
a little tired, a little sad, and a little giddy that we’ve made it this
far. Nostalgia of a life I left a
few days ago is washing over me.
What has only been a few days, feels like lifetime. I can’t believe we
finally left St Augustine. I’ll be
honest, I miss my friends.
Constantly having to say goodbye to people you care about is one of the
hardest things to do when you decide to embark on an adventure like this. I could’ve easily fallen into the life
I had in St Augustine. A
complacent life where you knew what the day had in store for you. I wish I could feel satisfied with that
lifestyle. Seeing familiar faces,
familiar places, and just sitting back and dreaming your dream instead of
living it certainly has its merits.
The attachment to the familiar is not one to be underestimated. The duality of wanting an exciting life
and having a comfortable one is one that I find hard to balance. They both carry with it its own pros
and cons. Living a traditional
life where you can bond with people and develop deep interpersonal
relationships is one that I wish I could just be satisfied with, but the person
deep within me, the one that yearns for the unfamiliar, seeing new places, and
trying new things is constantly nagging in the back of my mind. Yu, you must live your life, she tells
me. Yu, hardship is what comes
with building character, she says.
But there are times, in the silence of my mind, where I just long for
being happy with the simplest things.
A smile from a friend that wants to go shopping with you. Shelter from the wind and the sun. Going to a movie. These are the things that I long to
feel satiated with. It would be so
much easier if it were that way. I
guess that’s just something I need to come to terms with. The grass will always be greener, that
is life…
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